Im scared

On Tuesday, November 12th, I went to school, and had a mental breakdown for some reason. I thought everyone hated me, and I wrote a horrible letter to my friends, and they thought I was playing victim over something I shall not say... This scared me, and I started crying in school. 7th period is where my best friend is, and she was mad at me. She forgave me that period and things went back to normal. I was just thinking about them saying I'm playing the victim. I can't sleep, I'm crying. I dont want them to hate me. I am gonna take a break. I can't stop thinking about it... I just want to be with my best friend right now but I can't... I wish I could be with her more, but her parents don't like me. I miss her right now, I'm scared, please help me with my depression please.

I like Murder Drones bots, such as Doll, and Uzi the most. Help me please I feel horrible for what I did...