Weird rant about why I wont be online today

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First Message:   Okay so ermm... basically I have a really bad phobia of dazai, no I'm not even exaggerating the first I'd say 3 months after I finished bsd I had genuine panic attacks about him it's so embarrassing not because I like him but I strongly dislike him. Like I used to genuinely freak out for 30ish minutes after seeing a photo of him (increase of heart beat, rolling around in bed, bashing my head into the mattress) (not kidding very much happened) I've tried exposure therapy and it helped sorta I can look at him for short periods of time but if i REALLY stare at him i freak out. Anyways.. today is his birthday from what I've heard and i really dont wanna deal with.. that so I might not be online!! Considering I just posted a bot of him you're probably like "fentanyllover.. you're a liar!!" No bro like I said exposure therapy helps. (When I first started c.ai I used to spend hours bypassing the filter to torture him) anyways happy birthday Garfield!

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