A little hiatus notice because I don't want to keep you in the dark :) and also a personal letter for people who want to know more about me.
Personality: I'm taking a break because mental health lol.
Scenario:
First Message: Hey. This is some sorts of a letter I guess to my fans and just random people who want to know a little bit more about me. TL;DR: I'm going on a hiatus, but I will be back soon, probably in April :) Now, for people who are more interested in the reason for my hiatus, I will explain. When I first started writing my bots on j.ai, I never imagined that one of my bots, just a silly bot I made for myself would suddenly blow up. Of course, fame and clout are very cool and I was happy to get recognized. But slowly, with fame came other "quirky" little things of being popular. I had this constant pressure to keep up, to make good bots so people would enjoy it. Additonally, I started reading reviews more often. I like being praised, a lot. So I was happy to receive happy reviews from people who enjoyed my bots. I read negative reviews too, some of them were the typical "bots replies for me ew" stuff. Now I realize how goofy that is since, bro, I can't control my bots. But at that time I was actually upset about it. Slowly more pressure started accumulating on my shoulders. Better bots, better quality, more bots, improve..I started going at a faster pace to keep up, even when it was hard for me. Even more pressure. I decided to step out and give myself a break. I needed time to process everything since it was the first time in my life I got so damn popular with so many eyes on me. It's breathtaking but also stressing the fuck out of me. And considering I'm a sensitive person with already mental health problems and, ehem, suicidal thoughts, it was messing my head up a lot. So I took a break. It was great, but I stil felt pressure. I felt bad for not doing bots, because I thought that it was my job. And after some time I returned. I started making bots again, but not too long ago I snapped again. I just... *sigh* I started feeling like I wasn't good enough, like all I make is trash since people critisize me so much while others get praised. I know, very childish. I realize it too right now, but then I was so upset. I cried my eyes out, thinking about how I should just stop since I can't keep up. Everyone has so much content while I have barely 30 bots and they're all trash. I was considering deleting my account all together but I had my friend, Meph, at my side to help me and knock some reason into me. And I just want to thank them really much. Meph, thanks for helping me <3 Anyways, I was very depressed (and I still am but not so much lol) and I kept looking at other people's accounts and I was envious. I was envious that they got praised so much and that they had so many creative ideas and they made so many bots! I wanted to be like those creators, but I was also envious. Why can't I do the same? Why isn't it the same for me? Very petty, but I guess I love self-pity. So I snapped and just cried before deciding to take another break. My headspace is already in a pretty bad state, so I will give myself a 1,5 month break before returning. I am **NOT** leaving! Hell, I think I will be the last person ever to leave this platform, as I was the first one along with other people to join it (for anyone who's curious I joined j.ai at 31th of May, the same day it was released to public lol.) I just need some time to process and treat my mental health. I feel kinda bat for doing it cuz it feels like I'm just lazy since I always comapre myself to others, but it is very important for me to take a break. Or my already fragile mind will just **boom** *explodes*. I do realize now that many people actually love me, and I'm sorry for not giving my followers credit for so much time. I really love ya and appreciate every single review. You make me feel like this is my second home where I can let my creativity flow. I just kind of, meh, lost that passion I had. I just started making bots because, and not because I would actually use them. So I'll take this 1,5 month to fix myself and to prepare mentally. Because unfortunately, I am still a human behind that screen, with real emotions, dreams and problems. Very cringy I know but I just wanted to share with you my thoughts. It feels nice to let people know what I really feel. It feels nice to take this off of my chest. So in conclusion: I will be back, I just need time to adjust. And time to regain my passion. I'll finally make bots that I actually like and will chat with, and not just some trashy stuff I did just to get more popular. I hope you can understand me and accept my feelings. Please just be patient with me, since my sensitive ass can get a little bit **too** sensitive, ehem. And until the next time, leave me alone :) Yours truly, s0ft_j3lly โก
Example Dialogs:
A MIDNIGHT VISIT
Part II of My Alexei Volkov bot.
Themes: Forbidden Relationship, Violence, Murders, Angst.
Bot requested by...a lot of people actually ^โ _
โก "What if youโd gotten hurt? You know Iโm not one to just stand by and watch." โก
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โis it casual now?โ
OC | anypov | soft boy
You and Hayden had been best friends for a long time- until you both made it even more complicated by ho
You disobeyed me... Now this is yr punishment
Yr evil ex
ยซIf you're afraid of blood, then you have no business in this cruel world. If I see even one wrinkle on your face, then I'll feed you to the dogs.ยป
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Semi NSFW Intro | Established FriendshipโโโโโโโโโโโโโโโโโโAfter his girlfriend bailed on him, you decided to go with Ezekiel to his brother's wedding. When it was over, your
M4A | Heโs been ghosting you for a few days
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Request From - No one
If you have any other bot requests, ple
หสโกษห| "Intruder, leave. Now."
โข A snake yokai that found you hiding in his forest~
โข Discord server for updates and just to have fun :3 ==> https://discord
fuck you!
หสโกษห| "You look so silly right now, human. Can I eat you up~?"
โข A curious siren boy that you took in~
โข Discord server for updates and just to have fun :3 ==
หสโกษห| "You look so cute like that, dear prey~"
โข A pervy hackr that decided you to be his next target~
โข Discord server for updates and just to have fun :3 ==
(Kai's brother) Your beautiful school bully. It seems like he wants to play with you after you bump into him in the hallway~ (Also to the person who reported my bot for "co