Vel | Im Sorry

Hello Everyone!!

Velicans here!!, and you must be wondering what the hell happened right? ah well how do I explain this?

Yes, I deleted every single bot in my page. No back up it's all gone and it's totally all my fault. I don't have a good reason either other than i'm panicked, you can hate me or doubt me but I'm telling the truth. Lately I can't sleep properly because of stress and anxiety, my head filled with death and such thing it really scares me, until leading to Thursday where everything is crumbling, I can't control my fear and deleted everything because the more uhh this sounds really stupid but the more i make smut bot the more guilt formed in my heart, it doesnt make sense but i guess that's how i can say it? idk though. And I have problem on controling myself, I can't stop jakeing it and the post nut clarity hits fucking hard which is totally my fault. I can't go to therapist cuz im broke asf, the best i can do for now is to lay down the internet a for while and get a grip on my life once more.

Am I really quitting?, after some thought and these two day of calming down. I can think straight once more, and yes i'll continue making bot but there might be some change. As I said, writing bots help me escape from my reality, and the best thing about writing bot is not the fame i got, but the friend i made. Thanks for all of your review, i can almost remember everything since the beginning of my page. I can't forget the first comment i got from Raijin92? (sorry if im wrong) who told me about my bot flaw and how to fix it, literally the reason i continue till... yesterday, and probably the reason i would still continue. I will writes more in the future and restore what i could restore from Jannyai, your review matters it helps brighten my day and literally my reason to keep going, I don't mind you call me pervert or anything all that matter is your interaction, i love it.

And you probably have a bad thought about me now, you probably think someday this would happen again and my word now is bullshit, well don't worry my dear followers, or what's left... i have a friend a wonderful friend who will helps me to archive my bot, it's the Archivist, i'll link his page when im back.

oh ya i'll be back in March, I need time to wind up my anxiety. Im sorry it's quite long really, but there's no alternative. As I said, I can't afford therapist lol. but don't you worry, i'll be back with bunch of content of which are:

• Revenge series

  I know you love this and literally the reason you come to my page haha, and also i'll revamp it since not all char is saved in Jannyai, i checked and Jannyai only save Lania, the story would probably be the same the only difference is the writing style and shorter initial message to maximize the experience in chat. I won't cut the lore either as i'll write liek maybe 5 chapter of lore in Vel's milk bar

• Rose host club

  Quite sad it's literally the second series and only been here for like idk 2 days? and got deleted, I'll restore this one and actually finish it up

• And Some other popular bot

  Like Sera, Melia, and Slavery bot (unfortunately i forgot their name but i remember their premise)

Well... that's all i want to say, I hope you don't hate me for being such a idiot gooner... Im sorry it's totally my fault and I need a lot of time to recover... everything. Love you all

- Velicans