Dream.

I had a dream where almost everyone I had known suddenly turned on me and left me to be alone forever. Then I realized that wasn't a dream. It was 2 and a half weeks ago when it had occurred. I had originally thought that if I had stopped everything bad I had been doing that they would come back and play with me. I had quit J.AI, deleted Instagram accounts, tried to say sorry, clean up past fights with old friends. Nothing had worked. I could only rely on a certain person not to ditch me without a second thought, but then he did. 11 days ago, he blocked me on everything and didn't bother to explain why. I have been sulking for the past 2 weeks, having a bit of hope that at least one of them would talk to me again. That we could play those games again as friends. None of them cared, they continued to ignore me until 10 days ago. I had posted a slideshow on TikTok via my art account. I had only 3 people followed, my main, my alt, and my IRL friend. Somehow, one of them found it and I had gotten swarmed with people saying they knew the "real" me. Saying accusations to things that I had never even done. Down below is one of the people.

I had never doxxed anyone, if anything their server owner (for Minecraft) had threatened to dox me and my IRL friend's address all because we didn't agree with his opinion. As for the threatening, all I had done was did the joking threats like "if you kill me you like kissing (name)". Dumb shit like that, I did not like this person at all during my time on the server so I had just chosen to ignore them. I have spent the past hour writing this while crying to old messages of the only nice person on that server. I can't even play the games I had used to enjoy because it just reminds me of them. Even some new friends remind me of them. I wish I just could've just changed how I had acted towards them.