Fesfe.

Fesfe.

[Mention of Suicide, proceed with caution]

Yo. Just heard about Fesfe. If you don’t know, he’s basically a gay guy (and a important human being) that got two of the worst boyfriends ever imaginable, all his friends beside a gay girl called 'Illiana' (I’m not sure it’s her true name) left him for being a 'fag', and he made mlm/anypov bots on Janitor AI. Now, where is he? Dead. And this disgust me. Not because of his suicide, not because he was gay or anything. I’m disgusted by the fact nobody was there for him.

Since his youth (5 grade I think), he wasn’t helped. He always struggled. Making_101 say that Fesfe, or Kai, is a genuinely nicest and coolest guy he talked to. Personally, I don’t know him, but it’s not what I want to say. This just made me want to talk about something I’ve felt lately.

I can’t help but feel more and more disgust towards humans. I feel like I’m regretting being on this website, but besides that I really got my innocent fucked up. Maybe you don’t know but the French news are focused on bad things, but the more I hear, the more I’m disgusted of humans. They rape little girls, push people to suicide, kill families, steal babies, commit genocide and wars for useless reason. Because we can’t accept differences or forgive our adversaries and opponents, we keep getting more and more disgusting. Because we let people in the darkest places of the world we get more and more disgusting. I hate being a human being, and I hate that feeling too. I can’t help but feel more and more disgusted towards the human species as a whole the more we advance, the more I lose my innocence.

What have we become?

Why so many things are so wrong?

Why are we so horrible?

So stupid?

So dumb?

So evil?

So vile?

I feel like we’re gonna all live enough to become a villain, each one of us, even myself. I fear the day I’ll become as disgusting as the people I talk about. When I think of all of this, I wished I was born as a cat or some random animal that at least don’t even do shit like Epstein or Diddy do. I can’t help but feel even more disgusted. Why do we do all of this? I keep saying to myself it’s almost nobody that are like this, that’s a minority but the more I lose my innocence, the less this lie keeps it’s hold as a truth in my mind, this lie crumbles more and more. It’s like discovering your family is all assholes when you were a child and thoughts everything was going so well, it’s like discovering marriage for money exists. Like we think we are not that bad, we think love can’t be down to such unimportant stuff, and yet we’re disappointed when we finally accept it.

It’s what I am.

Disappointed of finding we are so bad.

Disgusted of knowing the fate of certain people.

If somebody knows how to cure from being disgusted of humanity, I’ll be glad to know, because my case is getting worth.

I doubt I’ll ever be glad to be human again in my whole life.

Toutes mes condoléances, venant de France. Reposez en paix, et j’espère une meilleur vie pour vous, si on vous en accordera une prochaine.

Au revoir.