Considering the end

Not quite an exictng type of news because this is supposed to be an update on what's been going on..

Why I haven't been making bots in a while because I really needed an long break because of obvious reasons that'll some of you will probably know is just lack of motivation and everything really...

I also have came to the realization that I'm pretty much an shitty person because of the stupid shit I've done... I've mindlessly defended Pokespook by accident that one time, in the past I said an opinion that wasn't meant to be mean since at the time I wasn't pan I was strictly gay and only liked dick for an bit so I made some trans guy made on accident when I didn't meant in a bad way since I really didn't mind trans men I just wanted some dick in my life so with that fuck up I got my face leaked possibly by one of my exes that I had in the past, during the time I was tryanna make an FNF Mod I was gr00m3d and was put under pressure to send shit I didn't want to send so then that person flipped the blame on me but honestly I think I deserved it because I'm just an lousy person seeking to be something I can't because I know I'll never be woman enough, and recently I just been doing fuck up after fuck up to my new BF that I got when Im not meaning to because this damn brain of mine won't function properly like an normal fucking human being for once.. And someone wants me dead now which is fucking scary but I think they may be right, I should do what they said... I'm just so tired of everything by fucking up badly with my new BF, my home life, being burnt out on everything, someone I thought was cool just harassed my friend Tony Stark/Eggman/Shorty/Ty , on completely egde with Shadic because I'm afraid he might come after me next when I wasn't part of the beef, every single project or concept of mine getting rejected because no one likes them at all {the Gianverse is an big example} , and overall everything that made my life difficult..

If y'all don't hear from me on any media I have then I'm dead... I know I will burn in hell for all eternity because of my well.. {Lemme put this in a way that won't be TOS} because of my "self-deletion"...

For you Jack, I'm sorry for fucking up badly and like I said I'll take full accountability of what I've done to you without even noticing because I genuinely care but my dumbass keeps fucking up for you.. I haven't been a good girlfriend for you and I've hurt you badly, I'm really sorry for that..

But with that discussed on here, Imma go to bed and just sleep all this stress out is all I can do for right now because I have to unfortunately keep pushing.. Well, even if I don't take my own life there's a possibility I still might pass away from all the depression taking effect on my body.. 40% chance I die from a panic attack in my sleep tonight but if Im still alive by morning I wanna thank you all for still being on my side for whatever reason that might be because I don't feel like I deserve all of this most of the time...