ᓵᒷꖎᒷᓭℸ ̣ ╎ᔑꖎ ᒷᑑ⚍╎リ𝙹 ̇/

ℸ ̣ ⍑ᒷ∷ᒷ ╎ᓭリ'ℸ ̣ ᔑリ|| 𝙹ℸ ̣ ⍑ᒷ∷ !¡ꖎᔑᓵᒷ ⎓𝙹∷ ᒲᒷ ℸ ̣ 𝙹 ᓭᔑ|| ℸ ̣ ⍑╎ᓭ

╎'ᒲ ᓭ𝙹∷∷|| ⎓𝙹∷ ʖᒷ╎リ⊣ ᔑ ʖ⚍∷↸ᒷリ.

i used to be such a happy person not that long ago
sure, still making the same edgy, unfunny jokes and having people still laugh at them, but i was happy
i actually thought i had some value to me

whenever i'm presented with time to think
with silence
i have more bad thoughts then they say i'm supposed to
i did all this just to get this out because i only had one other person to talk to and right now he's gone

it makes me think if did he sabotage himself just so he didn't have to talk to me? did he do all this just to avoid interaction?

i just want to smile for once
a real, unforced, natural smile