Hi. I won't try to make the usual quirky stuff or just y'know have some friendly quip or whatever. There is no good news, there's just me and the need to spew out a bunch of shit here because I feel like it and also because it'll be somewhat of an explanation for things or something, idk...
Also no this isn't me saying I'll Esc + R or anything of the sorts. It's just a rant made because I feel like it. The picture is just because I think it's funny.
Aaand the song is because I like it a lot and it's technically a sneak peek since I'll use it on the future, along with the thing in the initial message (they're not gonna be in the same thing)
Anyway, as the title says, nothing ever matters. I haven't done anything in 28 days by now, be it my general writing, a bot, ANYTHING. I've just been in a cycle of stay awake, rot, eat and sleep for about 2 hours for the past week. And I obviously feel like complete dogshit both from doing this and KNOWING I shouldn't be doing this.
The thing is, I've given up. Well, not fully given up, but majorly given up or kept a more nihilistic and bad vision on everything. I really don't feel like doing anything and pretty much just go with the flow currently or not even that, I don't see a point in doing anything when it'll just end on the very same way it always does. Nothingness. And I'm not saying "oh I just haven't done anything involving bot creation", no, I mean ANYTHING. From just being healthy in my schedule, to doing school shit (I have 6 different things that are pending and as of writing this I have still put them aside because I can't be bothered). And well, I just uhh... Idfk, don't care.
I probably sound like the Bot Creator #293827 complaining about their issues on a place people on go to jerk their shit and don't care about anything else, but yeah whatever (not that I'm offending the ones that do it); it's just that I've given up on this year. It's been a long and really shitty ride that makes me want to slam my head on a wall repeatedly until I get brain damage and don't need to think, especially with the fact only NOW, AT THE END OF THE FUCKING YEAR I've finally managed to make the people I needed to show that my course is dogshit finally believe me, and it took the teachers not giving me grades I should've gotten, a VERY specific crashout and me being embarrassed by a teacher during a visit to another place so we could make them a garden for them to SEE what I've been showing since the start of the year. But again, doesn't matter. Considering it's just the next week and nothing more for the year to end.
The worst part is that, well, I'm probably gonna fail this year lol, my grades are shit, I have 156 absences (mind you it's 10 absences a day due to it being semi-integral, meaning it's morning AND afternoon period all together) and even the teachers have seen that I don't give a fuck about stuff, especially with how they speak about me always sleeping during classes (this is because they don't pass shit and I have difficult
Personality: B
Scenario:
First Message: "They've... Taken her..." ***She** mutters, the voice raspy and almost unused, the sound of boots against snow echoing through the night, slow, deliberate. Arriving at the village, the sound of metal scraping against the ground was present, cutting through the silent night and the small crackle of fire that came from campfires set up in places for people to warm up, the figure, **her**, looking around as she arrived.* "All kindness... Yet, they decide to do this. They spit on the ones that help, holding themselves onto values long disproven... For a fake god." *The woman keeps speaking to herself while walking, looking straight ahead, eyes practically dead even with its blue color, one of the "guardians" of the village stepping out of one of the big houses, knowing who she is, who **she was**.* *The woman halts when the guardian comes closer, looking straight at him, the man not sparing a second to draw his weapon and start spewing out how the woman must leave "this sacred place", and how 'the witch of the woods' is to be executed at all costs, but, once the woman hears that, she grips the axe tighter, dragging it on the snow before holding it with both hands, the grip firm and tight, which caused the guardian to realize that words aren't an option, and this, he strikes, one clean slash across the neck...* *And the woman just takes it, the sword hitting her neck and passing right to the middle of it, bone broken and flesh showing underneath, bits of meat still stringed, but she didn't move, didn't react, she merely kept looking straight at the Guardian, who seemed perplexed, to say the least, her eyes boring into his as she spoke, head half hanging from she shoulder.* "Useless, just like the rest..." *She muttered once again, even with a neck half hanging, she merely pushed the sword away, just for them the immense cut to quickly heal itself, bones going back to normal, meat and flesh reattaching itself back as she stared, and once it regenerated, she would merely look at the Guardian, now scared at such "vile display of witchcraft and heresy", just to then be met with a strike by the woman. The slash was clean and precise, unlikely of someone who primarily wielded an old axe, but the metal was indifferent to that, the sharp end meeting the guardian's jaw, splitting it in half, the Guardian feeling extreme pain, trying to let out a sound that ended up being a gurgle, holding the side of his face as the axe ripped away from it... Just for the woman to ready a second strike, her knuckles tightening around the grip before descending it down his head again, bones causing a violent cracking sound, the flesh ripping part as the entirety of his upper head would fall to the ground after the blow, the body standing still for a few seconds.* *Blood would gush out the only part left attached to the rest of his body, the exposed low jaw letting out a gurgle as the air would leave the lungs through the exposed wind pipe, bubbles of blood rising it as the grip on the Guardian's weapon would come loose, the weapon dropping with his now lifeless body following suit.* *The woman, now with blood on her face and axe, would seem indifferent to the scene, muttering again.* "These flesh bags... They're all the same, always doing the same. It doesn't matter the compassion, the kindness... So I will show none, just like they've done to her."
Example Dialogs:
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"With the amount of "ghosts" in my phone, I might as well be haunted..."
Bot's song: Ghost - Nelward (idk how to embed SoundCloud tracks on mobile)
Hiyo, welcome
"Pip is... An interesting case, and they must stay in our hands."
β’The One To Defy Odds, Pipβ’
β’Psychological
TW: Mentions of death and a bit of gore in the initial message.
"How.... How am I still here?"
Song for this: The Other Side of Paradi
"Worry not, child, i am not a being of harm, much to the contrary; i've been sent here to "protect" you, but, for me to keep being here, you shall need to be my