ADDRESSING/UPDATES

sigh… my downfall ark starts now. career over. dreams ruined. i’m packing my bags goodbye forever. PLEASSEE IM A STARRRREEUGH

just kidding relax. i wanted to talk about a ton of thingsss including the whole chatgpt thing real quick because apparently some people suddenly think i’m a robot. like no. the only thing i consistently use is Grammarly because i make typos, i have poor grammar, i’m a perfectionist, and i used ChatGPT to help me come up with names or reword stuff when my brain breaks & i just can’t figure it all out on my own, I will admit i have used GPT to condense my writing down because i tend to overthink things and write too much. i’m not shakespeare, i get stuck, i think that’s normal. and truthfully? i don’t care if someone uses AI for their whole character. this entire platform literally runs on AI generated everything so the superiority complex is kinda silly to me in some ways. nonetheless, i understand your points.

i’ve been writing since i was 14. fanfics & stuff, whatever. i didn’t spawn on JAI yesterday with a sudden urge to create shitty stuff. i’ve always been doing this, i’ve just been learning as i go. and yes, i get inspired by other creators. who doesn’t? lying about that would be insaneeeee. I site it though, i’m honest about where things come from.

another thing: i stopped giving out my discord because a bigger creator (bigger than me at least) had their little minions messaging me like actual weirdos (at the time i had a real photo of myself in my pfp and i got extremely sexualized/harassed over how i looked.) usually the level of devotion would be hot if there was at least one dominant woman involved, but there wasn’t, so i was just very annoyed and confused. i hate drama and i’m not about to write an essay for ppl who can’t talk to me directly.

but apparently my writing is so “horrific” to the real writers of this community, so i will (NOT) be reworking all my characters to meet the standards of their personal literary committee. i’m 19, i’m literally just beginning, i’m not ashamed of how i started because i personally believe i’ve actually grown a lot, and i think for someone learning on their own i’m doing great. buttt i am removing a couple characters because too many people act like they own tropes now. (this is not singling anyone out, it’s just a pattern i’ve recognized!)

also a lot of my characters are loosely based on real life ppl/things that have happened to me like my character “izzy” was sorta based on my real life ex! idk it just sucks, i feel like my creativity is undermined. so i don’t think i’ll be using gpt anymore to help me.

and here’s some screenshots of how i wrote before i ever used AI because you can clearly see i’ve changed over time. which is the whole point of improving but whatever. I just wanna prove to you that i’ve actually improved on my own & with the help of AI, ive just learned how to further my writing instead of having silly run on sentences everywhere. you can tell i’m a yapper by how i’m currently writing this lol i just tend to overexplain things because i want people to understand rather than feel like they’re missing something.

and honestly? i wasn’t even gonna post this because i’m tired (actually sleepy.) also i feel like a lot of creators don’t like me or have already decided who i am and it sucks. especially in a WLW space i joined because i wanted to feel connected to people who liked the same things as me instead of constantly feeling isolated. turns out it feels like i’m not even allowed to breathe next to the same people i look up to. I just wanted a community in all honesty, i really wanted to feel like i belonged but i realize now that i don’t.

i still do