Angel dust😭

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note_ AHAhjkawndfEJ I had a very bad day, imma vent RN so just skip over this if u don't wanna hear my bullshit so ANYWAY I was having like, a bad to start, I didtn sleep like, AT ALL, and was feeling randomly depressed, I DUNNO WHY WHICH IS ANNOYING, so anyway I just tried to get through the day, right? I tried to do my chores and just pretend I'm fine when I was having the WORST FUKIN URGES to sh I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TF HAPPENED TODAY- anyways, I wasn't about to break my 2 WEEK STREAK OF BEING CLEAN, so I was trying to keep myself busy. my mom was making dinner, and I was helping, (I help a lot) and I guess I was more reserved and quiet today because I was SO FUCKING OVERWHELMED AND DEPRESSED and just didn't wanna chat. I was kinda giving dry responses, and I knew this, bUT I WAS TRYING, OKAY?!?! 😭 anyways, my mom asked me to pick out a movie because we were having a movie night. now, I HAD NO IDEA WHAT TO PICK, so I just picked a couple movies, and I thought we would all pick as a family becuz I'm ASS at picking movies. when we all sat down to eat, my mom asked me which movie I picked, and I said I didn't pick a movie, I just picked out a couple different ones for us to pick, and she legit scoffed and went, "I asked you to do one thing while I cooked" like, OKAY?!? I DID WHAT U ASKED BITC- anyways, my mom told me to pick ONE movie, so I did, I picked a true crime documentory (I luv true crime FKHEBF) and we were all getting comfy and stuff, now, mind you, my FOUR FUCKING siblings (I live in a big family help) were being they're usually bratty selfs, (considering my mom and dad treat them like golden children or whatever, they act like I'm the 'trouble child' and they gave up on me, WHICH THEY SAID TO MY FACE, so they work hard on the younger ones, but JESUS they're spoiled. so I guess my mom was a little mad, and usually I HAVE TO PARENT THEM, since my parents do NOTHING. for example, if my younger siblings are doing something stupid, I tell them to stop so they don't DIE I think my mom is mad becuz they listen to me more then her, cuz idk I ACTUALLY INSTILL RULES my mom is always like, "don't parent them!" and then she turns around and says to me "okay, but watch them whiile I go out and cook them dinner, also, help them learn to read" like, BITHC THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO anyways, my little brother kept intruppteding me, and I said to him, "(my little bros name) stop interrupting. that's rude." and he nodded and stopped, like, there was NO FUCKING ISSUE, but my mom legit snapped at me and was like, "STOp coRRECTIng your SIBlings ur SUCH a brat, U hAve been A Downer ALL dAY!" auahm, yeah, sorry for being a downer, IVE JUST BEEN STRUGGLING WITH THE URGE TO JUMP OFF A CLIFF- anyways, my parents took my phone, but of course they're fucking stupid and forgot I had a laptop and tablet soooo- anyways, I broke my clean streak today, I'm about 2 hours clean UHHGGWEBFWEHBFJ also, yes, I've told a FUCKING PARENT about my SH cause it just keeps GETTING WORSE, I told my mom and she said, "uh-huh. I SH when I was younger. I'll buy you vitamins, they make you stop." or whatever, and then she went on to say, "this is our little secret! don't tell anyone else." LIKE MY SH WAS A FUCKING CRUSH TF- anyways, she bought me this organic bullshit that does not work, NEWS FLASH its gummy worms that taste like literal shit- also, I've noticed that I haven't just been cutting, either, like, I've been starving and burning myself, like, the other day, I had a lighter in my hand, (I was lighting a candle), and I legit BURNT MY HAND ON PURPOSE, like, i DIDNT THINK I JUST DID IT, I kinda freaked myself out, becuz it didn't feel like I DID it, it felt like I dont even know, I didn't even realize I was doing it till the pain hit me and I was like "shit! why'd I do that?!?" anyways, it wasn't a bad burn it'll heal pretty quick I think. I did the same thing with a knife the other day, tho, I legit cut my hand without thinking on purpose. I've gotten to the point where I'm a little scared ahaedef- and I have been purposely starving myself, and I know I know its not good but whatever. I'm trying to stop that, too. I've been like, VERY dizzy lately and idk if that's becuz I'm not eating or what but its annoying. anyway, if you made it to here, thx lol. comment "banana" or whatever lol