Announcement.

THIS IS A LONG TEXT.
I have no idea who will reach this text. I will not put tags on this.
I will not proofread this. i will not look at this later and be embarassed.
I am being honest here. I am baring my heart to you.
Respect my vulnerability or leave, if you are unable to show humanity.

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Not gonna lie, i was very happy when ai was announced and that we could literally talk and roleplay with people. however.. it is not good that it is affecting the planet.

On one end, this site has given us many possibilities, like many other ai-platforms, to give us the feel as if we are talking to people or creatures of all kind and period or dimension of time and universe.

however... for me, it is just dulling by now. I have no idea when i joined. i love this site. i love the creators here. i love the characters i make. i love it when people chat with my characters. but on the other hand, the responsibility grows. the digital footwork grows. i myself have been chronically online all day and night, typing away on my laptop.

and it is chipping away at me. i feel like i this is my sanctuary. my salvation. but it is pathetic. how can feeding ai and hurting the planet i used to see and cherish be called that? no. this has to stop.

i have been dying to write a book for years, but seeing all the story telling and how i cannot even write my own starting messages for my characters here... it is really tearing at my heart and soul. i love writing. if you guys visit my tumblr, there is a lot (not good tho) fanfics about anime and webtoons. but i lose my creativity. i lose my ability, my will to write, when i see all the amazing ways things are written. i am too de-motivated to even go over to my google-docs to continue writing my grandhotel book.

i love reading. i love learning new things. i love knitting. i knitted myself a case for my airpods and my tablet along with my keyboard and graphic tablet and two pockets for the cable connecting the graphic tablet to my normal one and the stand for my tablet.

I want to knit more. I want to read and write more. i want to go out and meet new people. i want to do so much. but because of ai, i got addicted. i get lazy easily. i am a really lazy person. i have to study a lot. i have to help around a lot, even if i act like i don't.

Comfort over responsibility is not good, guys.

Burst the bubble and change your every day schemes. don't be a shut in like me. be better than me. i am not much. look at me like you'd look at the first step. if you can do more than me, that being cooking something and reading a few chapters of your favourite manga, then congrats, you already overcame me.

Be better than me. then at other people. set yourself a goal. i want to set a goal for myself, too. i am jealous of the people who do better than me. but i don't work for it. i want to work for it. let us work on it together. let us do better. together.

I already deleted most of my characters from c.ai. deleting my characters here is.. well, a struggle. on one hand, you guys apparently like my bots. on the other... i am just making you a