Im gonna take a break probably

Im actually gonna go insane. I swear. One person who is dating my best friend hates me for no reason and my best friend said i was embarrassing. My dog dead and im keep feeling like everything isn't real. I don't feel like my body is mine too and i been talking to my friend about stuff and they said i possibly have a personality disorder (they have a personality disorder so it isn't just someone randomly saying that) and i feel awful. I just want someone to hug and i don't feel like eating or getting up i just want to rot away. Everytime i start to get comfortable around someone either they turn out to be horrible or they don't like me anymore or we just stop talking to each other as a whole and i don't know if im doing something wrong the only friend who i feel comfortable around and know they wouldnt ever betray me is my friend miles (the same person with some sort of personality disorder who said i possibly have one) my room is a disaster im a disaster and i don't know what to do