STIOMM #1 (Shit That's On My Mind)

Im just gonna leave some shit here that's on my mind. Think of this like some Journal or whatever I don't know I'm bored man.

• What's the probability of this planet existing? Like honestly, it makes my brain go like this.

• Anybody else find the feeling of Nostalgia weird? Like what the fuck is that feeling? You feel both happy and sad, my brain can't handle that shit.

• Why the fuck do I feel so weird when I realize I'm alive and I exist? This is so fucking weird and messes with my brain I mean HOW? HOW DO I EXIST? Why is existence so strange?

• I find it fucking amazing how humans managed to create these amazing inventions and other forms of shit, which are so complex and overwhelming for me to still understand. Yet at the same time we are the worst and also the dumbest creatures to ever walk this planet.

• Why is it that I prefer being alone? Why do I hate talking to people after a certain amount of time? Why are some humans the opposite of that? Why do I struggle speaking loud enough for other people to understand what im trying to say? (・・ ) (I know what an Introvert and Extrovert is but still, WHY?)

• It's crazy to me how we humans have evolved from social animals to fucking lonely rats locked in our room looking at a rectangular light emitting thingy. (I became one of those myself lol, but Im trying to get out of it and be better.)

• I fucking hate it when one of my friends repeats something that happened to him that was funny, like bro I get it you don't have to repeat that shit every time we go out or when we meet one of you friends on the way. I mean I kind of get it, I also sometimes say everyone the highlight of my day (which is usually me being forced by my friend to go to the Gym) but I don't do that shit all the time!

• Why do I put such high standards for myself? Like why do I give myself these big goals but end up not doing anything to achieve them and instead write a fucking TEXT ON THIS FUCKING SITE!(⁠ノ⁠ಠ⁠益⁠ಠ⁠)⁠ノ⁠彡⁠┻⁠━⁠┻

• I always question myself as to why I don't start putting in the work for the things I want to achieve and it always made kinda sad. Why do I not do things that are good for me? Might be because most of the things I wanna to do and achieve are hard tasks that require commitment, but why won't I start? Why won't I continue? Why won't I make the most out of my limited time I have on this planet before I die? Why am I running away from my responsibilities? Why do I struggle simple conversations? Why don't I just start? Why don't I just go through the pain and just only think about the beautiful future i envision in my mind? I've read a book about David Goggins once and it left me a big impression on what a human can achieve. That guy had like all sorts of shit but he still managed to go through it all. Why can't I? What have I missed in that book? I don't understand, I kinda feel like i don't deserve the privilege to live. Im wasting my life and I don't know how to stay committed. (im typing shit in the description of a bot on a site where people create chat bots! i must be insane!! 😁)

• Things have gotten better and I started touching grass. ( ´ ▿ ` )

• I feel like I'm stuck between 2019-2021 for some reason.

• I hope to one day get out of this fucking mental cage

• God damn is it amazing going outside when you're absent due to sickness on a school day early in the morning with nobody there with all the greenery, the warm sun and the cold breeze. Heaven is supposed to be more beautiful than that? I hope I don't end up in hell man.

Yeah that's it. Have a nice day/night/in-between/whatever the fuck there is I don't know.

Edit: They really gotta revamp the review section, couldn't even show my entire text! Yeah but fuck it (I originally wanted to say imagine if you could use the Markdown syntax to show images in reviews just like how you tried but it didn't work). Edit2: Oh you saw my review on that bot of yours so that's how you found me. Welcome to hell.

Edit2: @COOLGUY101 Welcome to this chunk of my brain King Baldwin. Edit2: @COOLGUY101 I just remembered that I wrote a review in your Raiden bot and saw that you called me Ben Shapiro ರ⁠_⁠ರ (why him man). You most likely didn't get the reference (I'ma be honest, nobody got the reference.) but I was referencing [this.](https://youtu.be/J2lXf9r5DSM?si=YkcJLx5pZ-abFB1y) For some reason I remembered that old ass meme when I saw that image of raiden that was used for your bot. Why? I don't fucking know!😁