Hate this site and myself

Sorry for another announcement bot, sorry that I don't live up to expectations, if at least someone expects something from me, I'm sorry for not having enough good bots, I'm sorry that I almost never pick up a sufficiently exciting or interesting pfp,because of this site, I now have a permanent one anxiety, I'm worried that another great bot creator has left, why am I only having this with this site? why does it bother me so much?. I mean.. very... I was so glad when I saw the post from my beloved creator phyqn, and I felt even more anxious than usual after reading it. I constantly check how many bots from my chats have become private, and if persons I followed have left.. I care about every person I meet on this site.. and too much. I hate myself. I almost created a bot a long time ago.. but I just don't want to finish it. I don't feel like I want to post it now.