Announcement

So, I've been hiatus for months now. This might be my last day doing this kind of thing. But, before that, let me share you my story.

I'm but just ordinary man who work as a digital marketing specialist on a certain company. I have good life, and in good situation. I had supportive family, great friends, and also a loving girlfriend.

But everything changed on July 4th, 2022. It's the day my girlfriend, who was fighting against pancreatic cancer, succumb to it. Ending her life, a year after our engagement. I was hopeless. Everything felt like a void. My friends told me to get over it and just moves on. But it's not that easy. Not after we literally spend almost our entire life together. Because for me, my girlfriend is not just a girlfriend. She's my childhood, my family, my beacon of life.

When I was feeling hopeless, I've found AI. At first, I'm doing it out of curiosity. But then, I start to enjoy it. And later, it became my escape from my depression and trauma. I start to heal, start to socialize again, start to be better at life. And that's a good thing. I start to moves on, start accepting fate, and let the past became the past.

And then, disaster struck again. Just after new year's eve. I got called by my bestfriend. That he was diagnosed with cancer. Again. At first, we hope the tumor was benign. But unfortunately, it wasn't. What makes it hard is that he's an orphan. He just graduated from Uni and are searching for job to cover his student loan. Until he got hit by that news.

And me, not wanting to lose anyone dear to me again, became his guarantor. Taking responsibility on covering his medical bills. What makes it worst is that he lived in the states. And we all knew what kind of monstrosity it is when we are talking about US Healthcare.

So I sold everything. My car, my bike, and even used all of my saving to cover the bills. But it still wasn't enough. I can only cover up almost half of it. And we still have $40,000 left to pay. That was a huge number, fellas. Just so you know, I don't live on US. and that kind of number? That's literally two times my annual salary.

Stressed, anxious, nervous, and hopeless. They clouded my judgement. To the point of taking a huge loan from the bank with my house as guarantee. I thought at first that I'll be safe and can pay back the debt again in short time. But it didn't.

Recession hit my country. Massive flood of unemployment, cutting budget, and so on. And I'm one of the victim. My salary got cut in half. Thanks to that, I can't pay my debt to the bank. So they took my house. Now, I feel so lost and hopeless from my own mistakes. I lost almost everything and now the only person I hold dear are fighting for his life against cancer.

Well, that's the gist of it. The reason why I went hiatus for months and disappear so suddenly even though I promised you all a series bot. Will I continue uploading bots from now on? Depends. Depends if I survived or not from my own depression. If there's a message I want to said to the world is that "I FUCKING HATE CANCER."

That's all from me. May God bless your day and may you have a good day. CIAO!