YAPPING TIME

YAPPING TIME!!!!1!111!!!!11

Hey friends!! How are you all doing? I wanted to sit down and have a little chat with you hehe.

FIRST OF ALL: I'm not quitting Janitor NDCBSDHF😭

BUT! there are some things in my life that simply aren't working out for me right now (don't worry, nothing dramatic, just personal stuff).

Lately I've been struggling a lot to balance my hobbies, my professional life and honestly just my own comfort.

The truth is that my schedule is VERY restrictive. Like genuinely disastrous. I basically lose the entire day because of work. My life would be SO much easier if I had one of those 8:00–4:00 or even 10:00–6:00 jobs. But nope my job requires me to be available from 1:00 PM to 9:00 PM.

And listen, I refuse to wake up at 8:00 AM just to go to sleep at midnight every day. That kind of schedule makes me feel like I'm not productive at all because my free time is split into tiny pieces instead of one big chunk.

Right now my day basically goes like this: I wake up around 10:00 AM, get ready for work, do some basic chores around the house and before I know it it's noon and I'm already leaving for work (which is an hour away). Then I leave work at 9:00 PM and get home around 10:00 PM completely exhausted.

I do have three days off, but during those days I also have to do all the things I couldn't do during the week: groceries, paying bills, life stuff and trying to focus on my other projects and goals. And sometimes I don't even have those days fully because I have to stay available if my boss needs extra staff.

Unfortunately this is just my reality right now and I have to focus on it.

I think it wouldn't feel this overwhelming if I was actually working in what I love: filmmaking. But this job is a stepping stone. I'm saving money so I can eventually reach that goal, so quitting isn't really an option.

Because of this, I've noticed something that makes me really sad: sometimes I'm not enjoying the things I love anymore. I feel like they take up ''too much time'' and I literally have to wish for a random free hour just to relax and enjoy something, let alone work on Janitor.

I've tried making bots like I used to, but sometimes the spark just isn't there. And that sucks, because Janitor used to feel fun and exciting for me.

This also means I haven't finished (or even started 😭) some of the bot series I promised here. And my request list? I haven't made a single bot from it. Knowing that some of you left ideas and I haven't been able to work on them makes me feel TERRIBLE.

I genuinely hate that something I love is starting to feel frustrating.

So I decided I need to reorganize things.

I'm going to adjust my sleep schedule and my routine so I can actually do things that feel productive and enjoyable instead of constantly feeling like I'm wasting time.

Because of that, I decided to delete the current request form. I'm really sorry to everyone who kindly left their requests there. I truly appreciate it. But for now I'd rather close it and maybe open a new one later where I can take things slower.

Will I continue the bot series I started? Some of them, yes, the stories I truly feel excited to keep working on. The others won't disappear. I'll figure out what to do with them in the future.

My plan is simple: I'm giving myself exactly two months. Not more, not less.

Two months to reorganize m